Dream Residue

Had another breakdown tonight and it seems like I’m on a bit of a roll with those but I yelled and cried this time and then I was alone and all I wanted to do was talk to my boyfriend and it turns out he sucks when he’s put on the spot but he’s a wonderful listener and an extraordinary partner to have in life because once he gathers his thoughts and assesses the situation for himself he offers both his own personal experiences that both relate and do not while offering suggestions and the odd part humourous yet relevant analogy. We also discussed the cats we’ll have and the anniversary dates we’ll use and I told him that I kissed someone in between time before we were official and I’m glad I did because I felt it mattered even though it didn’t and now I just want him beside me, holding me and wiping these weeping eyes.

He literally took my “I want to kill myself” day and turned it into an “I fucking love my boyfriend and can’t wait to see him” day.

Maybe I need medication.

Anonymous:
Oh sweetie, yes you should do it. Give it a real go. It will just help you get over this pain you seem to be always in. Try not to resist it so you have the best chance of recovery. Eft practitioners are helping multitudes of people all over the world, and if you've got one of the best to treat you then you should embrace it. I told you I've done it and my issues seem like a past memory with no mental problems attached. If your father has paid for you he must really love you ...

Thank you, I still don’t know what I’m going to do but I’ll keep your experience in mind.